Two

Two Names You Go By?

1. K-lynn
2. Tallulah

Two Things You Want in a Relationship:

1. Sense of humor
2. Intelligence

Two of Your Favorite Things to do:

1. Music
2. sleeping

Two Things You Want Very badly:

1. To be comfortable financially
2. My old body back

Two pets you had/have:

1. Katie
2. Gabriel

Two people who you think will fill this out first:
1. ?
2. ?

Two things you did last night:

1. cleaned
2. watched "A Life Less Ordinary"

Two people who live at your house:

1. Me
2. no one else

Two things you ate today:

1. Raisins
2. Banana

Two people you talked to last:

1. P
2. Pete-Marketing Mgr

Two things you're doing tomorrow:

1. going out
2. running

Two longest car rides

1. Newport, Minnesota to Nashville, Tennesee-15 hours
2. Rosemount, Minnesota to Washington- 3 days


Two Favorite Holidays:

1. Halloween
2. Thanksgiving

Another Crappy Date with a Weirdo

I’d met this guy online a few weeks back-I met him when I did this… He and I had been communicating online for about 2-3 weeks. He seems funny and interesting etc..so we decided to meet instead of over coffee, over dinner. We decided to meet around 7:45p at a TGI Fridays half way between the cities we live. I was there at exactly 7:45p and he saunters in at 7:56p. He immediately asks me how long I’ve been waiting and I told him 10 mins. He then asked if I was mad, and I told him that I wasn’t mad but I certainly wasn’t happy. Instead of an apology or reason as to why he was late he just suggests we go grab a table. Grrrr, I hate it when people are late and more so when they don’t explain or apologize for it-Strike 1

We sit down and are talking while we decide on what to order. He tells me that he “cheated”, that his roommate had made a pizza earlier so 1 slice turned into 5 and well, he wasn’t really hungry now, so maybe he’ll have an appetizer or a dessert. I’m thinking- “great..”. We order and I start talking and I notice that he isn’t engaging me, so it turns into me asking him about what he thinks about this, what he thinks about that, what’s his opinion this and that… I’m thinking “ok, perhaps he’s really not interested in you after all. He’s a fairly tiny guy anyway-about 5’7 and perhaps 140-150 lbs….” He did ask me and sort of gave me hard time about eating healthy. I basically told him I lead an active and healthy life style, that I’d been sick for a short period of time and that motivated me with the help of my brother (who’s a Dr.) to lead a healthier lifestyle. He basically told me that he could eat anything he wanted and not have it affect him. I argued the point that just because you don’t gain weight doesn’t mean it doesn’t affect you etc and that it will catch up to him soon considering he’s in his early to mid forties. He basically blew me off. Not healthy?-Strike 2

After dinner we decide to sit outside for a bit-it was such a beautiful evening! We’re sitting just soaking it up when I feel him squeezing my left thigh… I look at him and ask what he was doing. He says that he noticed that my legs were big. That the rest of me was pretty proportionate but my legs were big. I explained to him that was because I run everyday. Most female (and some male) athletes and runners have larger legs, that’s part of the physical attribute of a runner, just as being long and wispy is the physical attribute of a dancer and to have a muscular and stocky upper body is the attribute of a swimmer etc. Thigh muscles are one of the largest muscles on the human body. He looked confused…I engaged him a bit on music and he was clearly disappointed that I wasn’t a Pink Floyd fanatic. I continued to engage him on music, and he suddenly interrupted me, declaring that it clearly wasn’t going to work between us. He explained even though he thought i was cute and nice, we lived on opposite sides of town that was an issue for him. I was a bit taken aback. I explained that we both are grown ups and have cars; not horses and buggies. It’s only 30-40mins and I had dated (X)Erik for 3 ½ years and it was never an issue. His next reason was that I owned my own home. He told me that since I wasn’t willing to sell it in the immediate future or have anyone live with me he wasn’t interested. My house?!-Strike 3

1-Since I struggled to buy my house, have owned it for only 2 years and love and appreciate it more-why should I sell it?
2- I would have to be dating someone for a year or two before I would even consider living with someone.
3- Why should I (the woman) have to give up what I have to a man? He can give up his house(s) for me!
4- Why are we even talking about this? We just met 2 hours ago!

He then asked if this was the part of my personality that was considered “fiercely independent”?
Hmmph, damn straight!

I’d pretty much reached my limit on this one and determined it was time to go…. He asked me for the time and when I told him, he mentioned that he usually limits his first dates to 30 mins. Well he didn’t like to waste his time on someone if there wasn’t chemistry.. He hugged me, begrudgingly wished me well and left.

It was about 11:30p by the time I got home and I was pissed. I couldn’t call anyone since it was late, so I went out for a run in hope of releasing some of this anger. Well by the time I returned from my run I was bawling. Why? Just like you wouldn’t go up to a stranger and tell them that they were ugly- you don't mention their physical features that you don't like to them, then mention their accomplishments are a hindrance. It's seems very cruel and ridiculous to me..

Just Sayin'

Paris Hilton- I think we should let the little, bratty, rich girl rot in jail….She deserves it and her parents should be hung for condoning her behavior.

Bragelina-I think this relationship is a hoax. He left Jennifer Aniston because he wanted to have children-now. I’m 90% sure he cheated on her with Angelina. She’s fucked up and we are all supposed to believe that her “blood in a vile, cutting, tattooed, sex in the car on the way to the Oscars” days are over because she adopted a few kids? Ummm, nope-not buying it!!! Stop giving them media coverage and honoring them for adopting. Those kids are going to need professional help! Besides, you ever seen Angelina holding, carrying or with Shiloh?

Taken from Meg…

1. Buy someone a beverage you know they crave, just to see them go, “Ohhh! I totally wanted one of those!” - I did this for my boss last Friday and I got “I don’t drink those anymore, sorry.” Followed by the “turd under the nose look”.

2. Ask someone how they are, and actually listen. Looking them in the eye. Not doing anything else. Asking follow up questions. - I did this and they were just as frustrated as I was with work and told me that they were leaving the bank as well!

3. For once, don’t complain about the thing you always complain about. Unless it’s funny. Then do WAY MORE COMPLAINING. - Considering my status at the bank right now-not going to happen anytime soon.

4. Eat something you REALLY want for dinner. Even if it takes time and a bit of effort.
- Not going to happen for I’ll gain all my weight back as I won’t e able to stop eating it!

5. Laugh at a joke that someone tells that isn’t actually witty at all. I know it goes against your human instinct to encourage lame humor, but doing it once won’t upset the balance of the planet. - I'm too crabby to do this today.

7. Open a window. Breathe. - The windows in my office don’t open; I think they’re afraid we’d all jump!

AHHHH!

I love her and this song too!

I saw this interview and have a whole knew respect for her!

This is just wrong…on so many levels

Nice timing

I finally brought to my boss’s attention the vendor issues and issues with the VP,not the swearing part but briefly mentioning that she was pissed. She was pissed….Not quite sure at who but pissed just the same. I spent about 20 mins in her office and even did a bit of the “kiss-ass” by bringing her a coffee; which she turned down. I leave her red-faced and livid and heard her phone ring as I was leaving to go back to my desk.

I must have been at my desk for 5 mins maybe less before I get a call from someone in our contract area asking if my boss was ok….then a minute later another, then another to the point where all 3 of my lines were ringing….the last person I spoke to was the receptionist telling me that my boss was in hysterics and the President’s Assistant had her keys and was taking my boss downstairs. I was mortified! I thought perhaps the news I gave her made her crack under the pressure. She’d finally thrown in the towel… I don’t know??!!… 15 mins later the President’s assistant came back up and informed me that that my boss was just notified that her dad just passed. God, I felt bad!! I couldn’t believe it! Her mother just passed 2 months ago and now her dad.

Well she was out all last week and the VP (my boss and the VP are best friends) spoke to her then updated everyone in my group on how she was doing….except me. So I wasn’t informed or invited to the funeral or gathering afterward. I was a bit upset about that. Then the VP continued to inform everyone else about any “updates and things to know” to which I was never informed of or told. To say the least, it put me behind…

Since my boss was out of the office, I decided that perhaps it’s time for me to find other work. My boss says she’d be “fucked” without me, but in retrospect she hasn’t treated me as such for several months. I’ve been getting these moody, crabby responses and even a hang up or two. I felt bad since all of this stuff with the vendor, budget, the VP and now her folks but damn it I don’t think I should or anyone should be treated this way. So I applied for other jobs outside of the bank. I did this for a couple of reasons:

• If I apply internally I have to wait until my boss returns and get her permission to transfer.

• If I do transfer, there isn’t a lot of room for movement or increase in pay without a college degree, so no pay increase. I would like to possibly find something that is a bit closer to home, I spend a lot of money working at the bank-in gas, train etc.

So I put out about 10-15 applications for Assistant positions at every Fortune 500 company in the Twin Cities that was hiring. I have a few leads and am hoping to hop cleanly out of here by the end of the month. I feel a bit sad since I was hoping that this would be the last place I’d be working, that I’d be happy here. I’ll miss seeing Brad, Ernesto and my other friends everyday, going out for coffee, going to lunch with a group of my friends and the once a month (or so) ladies night. I’m staying positive and trying to keep things into perspective, besides my house is on the line too. I do need to make enough money to pay on my house and an increase no matter how slight is better than none. So on that note, keep your fingers crossed and send me lots of love!!!!

I Think I’ll be a Leavin’

It’s been a real shit work week. The last 2 days I’ve been under the most stress I’ve ever been in.. my.. life. So much that I haven’t slept hardly a wink in 2 days, or have I eaten and my life at work has been sifting through thousands of invoices in a vain attempt to figure out why 1 lousy vendor didn’t get paid for 8 invoices last year (no it wasn't a mistake after all!). I have the invoices, they’re fax stamped indicating that I sent them to A/P, I have verification from A/P that I called on them to make sure that they were received but for whatever reason they did not get paid. The invoice “audits” I’ve been taking on the vendor have been B.S. They were not the reports I needed, so I had no idea that things were still being missed. The bank’s A/P dept has got to be the worst dept I’ve ever dealt with. The kick lately with them is paying only part of the invoice. I have 2 that I caught today that they only paid a portion of, so I have that to add to the news.

I just found out about this information last Monday. After doing a bit of research to verify that they truly weren’t paid, I decided to tell the VP of my dept the issue. She instantly got pissed and swore at me. I was so scared that I was shaking, and then I got mad. I found out that the vendor told her about this on May 24^th. She KNEW already but continued to chew my ass out!!! After 2 days of research and verifying that I did my part to do follow up on the invoices but they still weren’t paid and that vendor just didn’t send me some of them. A/P even decided to just cancel one of my invoices and not tell me! When I mentioned it to them yesterday, I told them that we would be processing it, but to hold on until we decide when, they processed it anyway! Another thing I need to tell the VP. She’s gonna flip out ….

In lieu of all of this, I am going to take some time off after the dust has settled a bit and decide if whether or not I should transfer to another job in another dept. They need an Executive Asst in the Technology Dept in St. Paul. It’s the same type of work and closer to the house, no change in pay though. I do need to keep in mind that I have to stay with the bank until next June due to the tuition reimbursement agreement. I’ll have to let you know how it all plays out tomorrow. Oh, yeah, I definitely want this handled before the weekend.

Only Happens to Me!

A few weeks ago a g-friend and I were walking from the train to her house and she announces to me that she recently got engaged…of course I was happy for her etc. She told met that she met this guy about year ago online. That Match.com had opened a related site and needed volunteers to test it. She volunteered and met her fiancé within a couple of weeks. Apparently after about a year or so together, he moved in and recently when I sent her to a trade show out in California’s wine country, he met her out there and proposed. They are getting married at the end of August up in Two Harbors. After all of this, I really didn’t have too much to say, I’m a skeptic. It all seems a bit quick to me and I’ve been working with her for 3 years and this was the first I’d heard of it.…she then suggested that perhaps I should try the online dating thing. Horrified by the suggestion, I explained that I’d tried that before and it never worked out for me. I had too many bad experiences, too many guys that I’d been interested in tell me that I was “too old”, “too nice” “too different” etc. besides I always seemed to grab the interest of guys that are closer to 50 and that are beer drinking, deer hunting, cigarette smoking, sports fanatics that do not exercise unless pounding they’re fists in the air when they’re favorite team scores a touchdown is considered exercise. I really don’t think the type of guy I’d date would “advertise” himself online anyway. I mean can you really show someone how smart you are online? She thought my reaction was funny and kept mentioning it all night….Finally, cracking under the pressure I made her a bet. I would sign myself up for the 30 trial period (it’s free) and that the 5 guys that I’m matched with would be overweight, deer hunting, beer drinking…you get the idea.

Let’s just say that I won the bet. I inserted my information, took the “survey” indicating fitness was extremely important to me, that my “partner” needed to feel the same, and that I didn’t smoke and was looking for a “partner” who didn’t either. Well, every guy I was “matched” with was “a few extra pounds”, “large” or “obese” and didn’t do much for exercise. The funny part was one of them had a picture of himself “muffin topping” out of his board shorts, with a beer in one hand and a cigarette in the other. I have nothing against bigger guys but would prefer someone who can go running with me every night. If a guy isn’t in shape and smokes, probably can’t run too far, if at all. I took a screen print of it and e-mailed it to her telling her I won! When I saw her next we were laughing hysterically about it, and then getting all serious on me she asks “well, did you think any of them were cute?” I rolled my eyes and replied “What do you think?”

Working it Out

Well it seems after the several e-mails to the vendor to explain why I’m hearing about late invoices now, they seemed to state indirectly that it was mistake and we are fine. So, I’m gonna run with that….ignore it like it never happened…..

Things seem to still be going along fine for the most part. I’m starting to wonder if I’m just sick of the job all together and the issues I’m having are just with me. I certainly don’t mind being an assistant but what seems to be chapping my hide is that I keep seeing people being hired into my dept that have little to no experience or a related degree. Not only are they being hired, they are being hired to do a similar job as mine and hired over me. What seems to make it worse is that I have a mortgage now and can’t seem to make ends meet with the one job. It makes me feel like the 8 hours I spend here are a waste some times. What good is it if you can’t live comfortably? It’s not as if I go out a lot, I mostly stay home and something stupid as a cup of coffee can set me into the red if I’m not careful. Yeah, yeah, you’ve heard me bitch about this before.

I’m also a bit frustrated over the fact that I can’t seem to lose that last 20 lbs. I have 20-30lbs left until I hit goal and I can’t seem to lose it. I think I need to “hunker down” a bit on the diet, make it as strict as I can and really spend the time running, lifting and really work out my problem areas. I find that I’ve been craving and indulging in “soft serve” cones too often. I had 4 soft serve cones between Friday and Sunday. Yeah, not good. I didn’t run Thursday through Saturday either so of course I spent an hour and a half running yesterday to try and shake some of this crap out of my system. For those who are interested, I didn’t run because it rained all three days.

School has started and it seems to be a very interesting class so far. It’s a lot of work in a very short period of time again, so I hope I can keep up. It’s been a challenge so far. Class is Mondays and Wednesdays; reading and writing 6 chapters per class. So, not a lot of time to study in between. There are only 2 papers and the first is fairly easy. So if I just study “ahead” for 5 weeks I should be set-hopefully.

I Wanna Go Home!!!!

I’m attempting not to lose it …..I hate vendors. A particular vendor we regularly use just informed me that that 9+ invoices from last year still have yet to be paid…What?! I keep a record of every invoice we receive and when it was paid. I have record in my spreadsheet that it has been paid, but A/P says that they have no record of receiving it.. Huh? So tom say the least my boss is gonna shit! All this money is going to have to come out of this year’s budget instead of last year’s and she’ll be a bit pissed at me and the AVP. So I’m trying to keep my desperate panic under control until I confirm with A/P and the vendor that indeed they haven’t received anything. I hate days like today. Things like this seem to be popping up too much lately….

I think it’s pretty sad that coffee is the only thing I look forward to at work these days… (Sigh)

It bugs the shit out of me when women who I don’t know or don’t know very well get engaged and do the “look (thrusting the ring in face) I’m engaged!” The AVP of my dept at work is getting married… I don’t really know her or care too much about her even though I’ve worked for her for approx 4 years. She’s pretty ok as long as you don’t get too involved. She and my boss were sitting her office giggling over wedding paperwork and brochures. I asked who was getting married and then the thrusting of the ring in my face and “I am”! The damn thing is like 3 carats she could flag down planes if she needed to. Then I start getting the low down on how she’s getting married in October at a hotel instead of the VFW like her last wedding. After telling me all this and me asking a few questions, I was starting to feel like a huge loser. I started to change the subject then just interrupted her. After all, I did come over to her desk for a reason. She answered the questions I had and I went back to my desk. All day long I was feeling like a pathetic loser because she told me about her wedding; her second wedding. Here I’m thinking “I must be an asshole, I can’t even get one guy to marry me, and here she’s managed to sucker two...” Granted the woman is so high maintenance. Crap, she gets her hair highlighted and colored every other week, her nails every week and tans 3-4 times a week. She trowels on her make-up…. She’s known to some at work as “Peg Bundy”. So you can imagine my puzzlement…. I just don’t get it unless all that stuff is based on soul mates, destiny and all that stuff that I don’t seem to understand. And yes, I’m a fairly secure person, but on occasion self doubt does creep in.

I finally worked everything out with school. My schedule indicated that class started on Wednesday of this week. Last Friday I receive a letter from the Prof. indicating that class is really on Tuesdays and Thursdays and class will start on Tuesday, enclosed is the assignment he expects us to complete for we are having a test on it. I e-mailed him on Sunday evening didn’t hear anything. I finally called him on Tuesday night which he informed me that his letter was a mistake and class was still Mondays and Wednesdays, so class would be Wednesday and my assignment would need to be done and we are still having a test. I informed him that due to the confusion, I wouldn’t be coming in that night for class nor had I obtained my books. He excused me but told me that all assignments needed to be completed by next class. I agreed. I can’t wait until I’m finished with my degree!