Ribbons and Bows

Ok, I’ve been at the electronics company for about 6-7 weeks now and I have to say that I’m not impressed. I thought for sure that I wouldn’t understand the job and it’s “in’s and outs” now I wonder what the hell I was worried for? I have figured out all the systems and how everything works to the point that I can get it done lightening fast and then sit there-bored for about 2 hours until I walk around and beg for something to do. By the time 5p rolls around I’m ready to claw my eyes out just to get out of here.
This job is killing me!

What Brings You to Your Knees….

Its day 96. It's 1:06 in the morning. I'm up-again. It's raining; hard-again; fat drops are rapidly hitting the patio and window above it as if someone where throwing marbles at it . Tap, tap, tap, tap. The thunder is deafening and shakes the foundation of the house. Lightening tears across the sky in rapid succession. The wind is whipping about my bedroom walls and I can hear it growling a few short feet above my head. I hear the tornado sirens go off. My house will be in the thick of it soon but I’m calm, nestled safely in my house by the Mississippi.

I’ve experienced insomnia too much in the last few months. The early morning hours, the stress I’ve been feeling holds itself still and doesn’t rack my body. It’s a welcome relief. I went to bed at about 10:00, and have been getting about 2 hours of sleep before I find myself suddenly wide eyed. As it has been recently, I will go back to bed around 3:00 or 4:00 and try to get in a few more hours before waking again at 6:00 to get ready for work. Instead of tossing and turning about alone in the dark, I decide to move myself to my office downstairs, turn on my PC and see if my brother or if one of my friends is awake as well. Gabriel sleepily follows me downstairs-my night time companion. Katie is asleep on her blanket on the sofa and barely shutters at all the activity. Pop. Suddenly the lights go out and the house is now engulfed by the storm. I transfer myself to the living room and open the curtains to view the spectacular sound and light show outside. I’m not frightened, though I should be. It’s 10 steps down and around the corner to my crawl space but I don’t feel it necessary to seek shelter yet.

Right now, I am still-for once. In a few hours I will be up to bathe, get dressed, feed the animals, drink a well deserved cup of coffee to settle my stomach before starting my day.

The sirens are off now and I see light.

He

He was waiting in that room for me.

I was talking with friends.

I didn’t remember,

I didn’t know who he was,

I didn’t care.

He used to be a rebel with long hair and worn boots.

Now a bit more haggard-beaten up by life and the road;

A bit more pensive, more thoughtful, not as renowned.

We spoke and I couldn’t resist,

I missed him-oddly enough.

He loved the blue eyes of that country girl.

I loved the mind of that Italian boy.

He said he’d been waiting for me,

For a girl; a person like me;

Someone who connected with him;

Someone who gave him hope, energy, inspiration.

For me; the world seemed to spin a bit faster,

The days seemed longer, the nights shorter and I felt special-even if fleeting.

He said he was waiting in that room for me.

Where I was talking with friends.

I didn’t remember,

I didn’t know who he was,

And I didn’t care.

I Felt Special for a Moment…

He said that he liked that I was smarter than him.. I said “You have no idea.”

He said that I was beautiful.. I said “I don’t know about that.”

He said I can’t believe you’ve never been married… I said “Believe it, and there’s nothing wrong with me.”

He said we had a lot in common… I agreed.

He said he liked talking to me…I said “I like talking to you too.”

He said he missed me… I said “I miss you too.”

He said he never met anyone like me… I said “you never will again either.”

He said he liked the fact that I was a no bullshit sort of gal… I said “good, b.s. is a waste of time.”

He said he had a child…I said “I’m not happy about that, but it’s ok.”

He said he was divorced; he didn’t marry for love… I said “you should never settle for anything but.”

He said he wanted to take this a step further… I said “ok.”

I didn’t expect that it would be away from me.