The Holidays Suck!

I say this every year...I hate the holidays...
I feel like such a buzz kill when I say this to people, the looks of disappointment I get in return...
Most of my readers know that I don't like people much, especially people who don't think past themselves and aren't aware...You know who am talking about..that person, you met them, that person who is at your local "mom and pop" bar, drunk, dancing and are so sloppy drunk they bump into you and bump your drink into your lap...their friends are too self absorbed to take them home and they don't care where they are as long as they have a place to vomit...The woman who bumps into you at the grocery store and doesn't say excuse me or better yet just ignores the fact that your trying to look an item that her fat ass is in front of...yep those people..
I can't stand malls, grocery stores or any place where there is a crowd....If I'm there your ass I'm there for a damn good reason and had to "prep" myself prior too...
I digress, so with these things in mind, you must know I hate shopping....I used to go hog wild on the Christmas shopping until I bought my house....I used to decorate until P and I separated and he moved out...
This year my family with all the difficulties we've had, decided to bring it down a couple of notches and make it about the kids...my 2 nieces that is..
I bought gifts for them and that's it...My brothers and I decided to not buy each other gifts and our folks declared that they didn't need any thing so...
Made my life easier I tell ya!
Now I usually send out Christmas cards but after I addressed them etc I realized that I really can't afford the stamps that it would take to send them out...so nix that idea. I'm not a talking about 20 stamps more like 100...you get the math I'm sure!

On Christmas Eve
-Worked from home until around 3p
-Went over to folk's house and wrapped gifts
-Ate traditional lasagna dinner with whole family
-Opened gifts ( 2 new house phones, pj's, socks, Old Navy gift card, and bath set)
-Went home about 10p

Christmas Day
-Worked at airport until 12:30p (got out at 1p:was preoccupied talking to a gentleman from Alabama)
-Went to folk's house and changed into pj's
- Had traditional Christmas dinner (Boston Market's chicken dinner with all the fixings) with Ryan, June and my Mum...
- Watched movies and relaxed with Ryan, Mum and June
- 8p Ryan and I go see National Treasure-Book of Secrets in our pj's
- Go home about 12a

Where Did It Go?

I gotta tell ya, I’ve had a busy few days here and hardly any sleep which for me I guess is typical.

Friday- Worked until 6:30p (knowing I was going to be out on Monday morning) to prep for a big meeting members of my team are having..
Met, A.B., Rob and D at Old Chicago for dinner and to chat. It was our first time out together, outside of work…didn’t get home until 11p.

Saturday- Worked at the airport from 11a-7p, rushed home to change and meet Kim at Primetime in Burnsville to see Bad Animals. Hung out with Kelly, Leni’s sister (who is a riot!), Randy their photographer, and of course all the other usual suspects. Texted the girls periodically throughout the day since they road tripped out to Nashville to catch Scrap Metal at the Wildhorse. They got there, saw, conquered and arrived back home all in one piece. See there stories..here, here and here…
Got home at 3am

Sunday- Worked 12p-8p at the airport and ran errands to Target-exchanged a shirt, Walgreen's-more make up supplies, and Kohl’s-returned a pair of jeans and a dress.
Got home at 10:30p, did some checking up on the girls coming home from Nashville, answered some e-mails and chatting with P before hitting it at midnight.

Monday- HR training at the airport - 4 hours of watching video….I have no eyes for I poked them out with a dull object, I was so bored. I actually fell asleep and then left to go back to work at The Electronics Company. Prepped for our Team holiday cookie swap and meeting then worked a few projects before leaving at 6p…I will eat, whilst answering e-mail, checking My space, paying bills and writing out my Christmas cards. I will need to do some laundry for the week, make my lunches, pack both my airport uniform and my workout clothes and vacuum prior to falling into bed around 11p.
I have another 4 hour training course at the airport on Weds-oh joy!

Someone to Take Care of You?

Those very words were said to me by the guy I met 3 weeks ago at Hairball show (Mr. “Are you Slow?”). I almost killed him. Wait, let me start at the beginning …

The girls and I drove out to Hopkins to see our favorite band, the Bad Animals. I invited “Steve” to meet up with us there, if he felt so inclined. He arrived shortly after I did and brought his friend “Tom”. “Steve” asked if I wanted a beer and I politely said no… Next thing I know there is one sitting in front of me. I asked where it came from and who paid for it…he said it was from him and he paid for it…I thanked him and continued to enjoy the show and my friends…I talked to “Steve and “Tom” for a bit and decided to talk to my friends…As I was talking to one of the band members about something personal, “Steve” sticks his head in between us and asks what we were talking about…I told “Steve” it was a private conversation I was having so…
Then every time I had to scratch my arm, back, leg etc, he’d come over and scratch it for me. I’d politely say thank you…By this time I’m starting to get a bit annoyed….
Then he asks if I want another drink and I told him no…another drink appears in front of me…Then I get mad. I tell him that I said no and I’m tired of him buying me things…He fixed my car and for that I’m eternally thankful, but I paid him for it and enough is enough. He made a couple of goofy faces at me and told that he didn’t know what the problem was. I told him that I’m trying to get back on track and I really don’t drink a lot. It’s not good for me . To which he responded “You’ll what? Burn it off in like 10 mins of running anyways..” He had the nerve to tell me that I take this “Athlete, working out thing too seriously” and that I “need someone to take care of “ me…I practically had a fit…

Thing is even though I have/am having issues with my house, my car, my finances..they are my issues! I believe that with independence comes freedom, and that’s what I want and have always wanted. I’ll work it out, I always do. Working to resolve my own issues gives be pride and keeps me sharp and on top of things. I never want someone to “scratch my back”, even the though the intent may be innocent, a sign of affection, or to help-I can do it myself. If I fail, I failed on my own terms- myself. You can comfort me afterwards. Don’t get me wrong, I do want you pull out my chair for me and hold open the door-that is just the “lady” in me that believes I deserve that. There are quite a few things I prefer to handle on my own. I don’t ever want to be one of those women that relies on her husband/boyfriend/significant other for money, place to live, a car…I can do all of that myself…I need companionship and the occasional opinion/sounding board not someone to rub my feet…ok-you can rub my feet, but it’s not a requirement. This is also the reason I’m not going to date this guy.

The last 2 times I have invited him out he’s gotten a bit possessive as well. He points out every guy who stares or looks at me. He drinks waaay too much, eats like crap and never worksout-proclaiming he doesn’t need to. He's 41..What he fails to observe is that eating right, working out etc is MY lifestyle and I feel it's detrimental to a long and healthy life. I’m not considered in the “free and clear” until I hit 5 years… Admitantly I eat like crap when I go out with him. I find it extremely difficult to eat a salad when he’s having a burger and a beer. I certainly don’t expect every person I’m out with to eat a salad because I am, but don’t pick the cheesecake, talk about how great it is and offer me a bite unless you plan on keeping that arm! I’ve tried to explain to him-in detail, how serious I take this. How it's a lifestyle and how I plan to compete in the next year or so. It’s not a vanity thing, it’s a health thing. I just don’t think he gets it. The hint ther is that he makes fun of me and makes comments such as “You look fine”. I’m not asking for an opinion.. I decide whether or not I look fine and it’s not about the physical anyways…Sigh-I just don’t think he gets it and it’s the last time I take him anywhere with me again.

Interesting Conversations..?

A conversation with one of my g-friends at work…talking about the guy I’m crushing on recently…

D: That’s him?
K: Yeah,, isn’t he hot?
D: He needs a hair cut, his hair is all nappy…maybe a shower..
K: His hair isn't nappy..Yeah, maybe he should get a haircut, the shower thing…not so much…the guy does bathe D.
D: Not too sure about that…he looks like he might smell…
K: Your kidding right? You actually think I’d be after a guy who stinks? Besides, what does a smelly guy “look” like anyways? I smelled him, he actually smells good..
D: Like that!! Damn your standards are low…there are so many other fish in the sea that are better looking, in shape and have better jobs…
K: Perhaps…but I think this fish looks extra sparkly! I wanna him, can I? Can I? Pleeeeze?
D: You better use a condom man. He’s probably got diseases!
K: What?! Am I 12? I’m 37, your 25…I think I know a bit more about that than you…
D: Don’t assume, and you never know…I don’t wanna here you getting all pregnant and shit…
K: You MUST be referring to someone else…I can’t get pregnant remember? So you don’t think he’s hot?
D: No, I don’t get you….what’s so great about this guy? Is it because he's in a band?
K: No, not a real one anyway. He’s dark, brooding, has a bike, he seems smart, comes from the backwoods, and he’s kinda scary…raised in Tennessee I think..
D: Can’t you go out with a “normal’ guy? Hey, like that one over there…He’s cute!
K: Ain’t no such thing and that guy is ewww, and a suit…
D: A suit? What is that?
K: A business guy…I went out with one once, it sucked…the guy actually was more maintenance than me! I'm not kidding..
D: (laughing) like how? Did he bathe?
K: Yeah, you’re funny, no, he got manicures and pedicures every week….He even bought me an $80 shirt once…Who buys an $80 shirt? The shit needs to be made of gold or silk or something…it was a plain old cotton henley…for $80.00!!
D: Really?? Can you set me up with him…?
K: No, he’s a dink!
D: I know someone here at the Electronics’ Company that’s good looking, in shape, rides motorcycles, is smart, has money, has never been married…
K: ok, who?!

Turns out it's one of our co-workers..

K: oh hell no! He’s got an ass on him this wide! (extending my arms as far as they can go)
D: So, he’s got everything else you want..
K: No.. I'm not even sure he's that smart..
D: Hey A.B., Look up this guy and tell me if you think he looks like he smells and needs to get his hair cut…
A.B.: Ummm, ok…(laughing)

Looks at the pictures on his website..

K: Well, I think he’s hot…I don’t care…I sure in the hell don’t think he smells.
A.B.: (laughing) I don’t know what a smelly guy “looks” like but he does look like he needs more sleep!

Personality Themes?

I took this at work and thought it was going to be completely inaccurate, but was pleasantly surprised.. A bit of twisted insight to what makes me tick..

Your Themes report presents your five most dominant themes of talent, in the rank order revealed by your responses to the poll. Of the 34 themes measured, these are your "top five."

Strategic
The Strategic theme enables you to sort through the clutter and find the best route. It is not a skill that can be taught. It is a distinct way of thinking, a special perspective on the world at large. This perspective allows you to see patterns where others simply see complexity. Mindful of these patterns, you play out alternative scenarios, always asking, "What if this happened? Okay, well what if this happened?" This recurring question helps you see around the next corner. There you can evaluate accurately the potential obstacles. Guided by where you see each path leading, you start to make selections. You discard the paths that lead nowhere. You discard the paths that lead straight into resistance. You discard the paths that lead into a fog of confusion. You cull and make selections until you arrive at the chosen path-your strategy. Armed with your strategy, you strike forward. This is your Strategic theme at work: "What if?" Select. Strike.-Meaning: I cut through the crap.

Input
You are inquisitive. You collect things. You might collect information-words, facts, books, and quotations-or you might collect tangible objects such as butterflies, baseball cards, porcelain dolls, or sepia photographs. Whatever you collect, you collect it because it interests you. And yours is the kind of mind that finds so many things interesting. The world is exciting precisely because of its infinite variety and complexity. If you read a great deal, it is not necessarily to refine your theories but, rather, to add more information to your archives. If you like to travel, it is because each new location offers novel artifacts and facts. These can be acquired and then stored away. Why are they worth storing? At the time of storing it is often hard to say exactly when or why you might need them, but who knows when they might become useful? With all those possible uses in mind, you really don't feel comfortable throwing anything away. So you keep acquiring and compiling and filing stuff away. It's interesting. It keeps your mind fresh. And perhaps one day some of it will prove valuable.-Meaning: I know a little about everything…Jack of all trades, but Master of none..

Restorative
You love to solve problems. Whereas some are dismayed when they encounter yet another breakdown, you can be energized by it. You enjoy the challenge of analyzing the symptoms, identifying what is wrong, and finding the solution. You may prefer practical problems or conceptual ones or personal ones. You may seek out specific kinds of problems that you have met many times before and that you are confident you can fix. Or you may feel the greatest push when faced with complex and unfamiliar problems. Your exact preferences are determined by your other themes and experiences. But what is certain is that you enjoy bringing things back to life. It is a wonderful feeling to identify the undermining factor(s), eradicate them, and restore something to its true glory. Intuitively, you know that without your intervention, this thing-this machine, this technique, this person, this company-might have ceased to function. You fixed it, resuscitated it, rekindled its vitality. Phrasing it the way you might, you saved it.-Meaning: I’m a problem solver…

Context
You look back. You look back because that is where the answers lie. You look back to understand the present. From your vantage point the present is unstable, a confusing clamor of competing voices. It is only by casting your mind back to an earlier time, a time when the plans were being drawn up, that the present regains its stability. The earlier time was a simpler time. It was a time of blueprints. As you look back, you begin to see these blueprints emerge. You realize what the initial intentions were. These blueprints or intentions have since become so embellished that they are almost unrecognizable, but now this Context theme reveals them again. This understanding brings you confidence. No longer disoriented, you make better decisions because you sense the underlying structure. You become a better partner because you understand how your colleagues came to be who they are. And counterintuitively you become wiser about the future because you saw its seeds being sown in the past. Faced with new people and new situations, it will take you a little time to orient yourself, but you must give yourself this time. You must discipline yourself to ask the questions and allow the blueprints to emerge because no matter what the situation, if you haven't seen the blueprints, you will have less confidence in your decisions. –Meaning: in my world, history never repeats itself unless the resolve is immediate and gets it done.


Adaptability
You live in the moment. You don't see the future as a fixed destination. Instead, you see it as a place that you create out of the choices that you make right now. And so you discover your future one choice at a time. This doesn't mean that you don't have plans. You probably do. But this theme of Adaptability does enable you to respond willingly to the demands of the moment even if they pull you away from your plans. Unlike some, you don't resent sudden requests or unforeseen detours. You expect them. They are inevitable. Indeed, on some level you actually look forward to them. You are, at heart, a very flexible person who can –Meaning: I see the contingencies of every action/decision I make, most of the time.

In the News…

I’ve been sent this article 3 times…
Rate Freeze

But I’m getting closer…

I saw this and was sooo excited, I love these guys!!!

I friggin’ knew it!!!

I was wondering what happened with this….I love Boston…L

Tomorrow is the anniversary of this…I was 10…My mother cried

Please this guy is a dominant, aggressive fool, nosy idiot!!


I think this is mostly true…it even mentions the “dying alone with the cats..” is a fear I have.

I’m sure as hell not going to meditate in order to have others find me attractive…What the hell?

Is it awful to say that I read about most of these?

I still think he’s hot, along with Robert Redford..

I think that’s dumb! Too old? Didn’t he marry a chick who was 23?

These are the stoooopid people!

How is THIS possible?

Snow? On a Thursday?

Ok, I’m not complaining…hope my friends out in Iowa are ok…

The one about the Priest kills me!

Kind of a nice Holiday story-mystery..